Compulsive Worrying – Coping

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I have a confession, I am a compulsive worrier.
Ever since I can remember, I have always lived my days worrying about pretty much anything and everything.
I would imagine the absolute worst case scenario, conjure up a detailed motion picture movie in my head, and then I’d believe it as if it were currently happening. Negative assumptions would be preceded by a slew of negative feelings, which would be based off this unrealistic reality.
Eventually this thought process became very destructive and started to affect many different aspects of my life, and well-being.


Signs of Symptoms of Panic Attack Disorder:

Palpitations, pounding heart, or accelerated heart rate
Sweating
Trembling or shaking
Sensations of shortness of breath or smothering
Feelings of choking
Chest pain or discomfort
Nausea or abdominal distress
Feeling dizzy, unsteady, light-headed, or faint –
Chills or heat sensations
Paresthesia (numbness or tingling sensations)
Derealization (feelings of unreality) or depersonalization –
(being detached from oneself)
Fear of losing control or “going crazy”
Fear of dying

Signs of Symptoms of Generalized Anxiety Disorder:

Restlessness or feeling wound-up or on edge
Being easily fatigued
Difficulty concentrating or having their minds go blank
Irritability
Muscle tension
Difficulty controlling the worry
Sleep problems (difficulty falling or staying asleep or –
restless, unsatisfying sleep)

Signs of Symptoms of Social Anxiety:

Feeling highly anxious about being with other people –
and having a hard time talking to them
Feeling very self-conscious in front of other people and worried about -feeling humiliated, embarrassed, or rejected, or –
fearful of offending others
Being very afraid that other people will judge them
Worrying for days or weeks before an event where other people will be
Staying away from places where there are other people
Having a hard time making friends and keeping friends
Blushing, sweating, or trembling around other people
Feeling nauseous or sick to your stomach when other people are around


I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder. Unless you are a close friend, or family member, many people have (and will) find this shocking to believe. I became very good at keeping my feelings locked away in the closet. What people observed was a total inaccurate interpretation of how I actually felt. Inside, I felt like my brain was caught up in a storm of constant, repetitive, and racing thoughts, but that didn’t stop me from smiling. It was on fire. Eventually the anxiety led to Major Depression (and the smiling ceased to exist – for a while), which I will discuss another time.

The greatest accomplishment for me was being able to recognize that there was an issue, and that I needed help beyond peer social support, journal writing and self-help books.
There is so much stigma circling around mental illness, when it’s merely no different than any medically diagnosed condition. It should be treated with the same level of priority and importance. Medication, psychotherapy, and support groups are okay. No one should feel judged or embarrassed to seek support. The only way to break the stigma is to talk about it, spread awareness.


Here are some things that have helped me manage my cyclic worry:

Create a list – Identifying the things you are worried about allows you to acknowledge them for what they are (just thoughts), and it allows you to do something about them (or perhaps nothing at all).
Analyze (but don’t over analyze) – Determine whether your thoughts are productive or non-productive. Productive in the sense, can you do something about it now? Non-productive thoughts are typically worse case assumptions, “what if”, that cannot be changed.
Embrace Uncertainty – Accept your limitations, and let go, focusing on the things you do have control over and enjoy.
Bore Yourself Calm – Repeat the negative thoughts in your mind until they lose their importance, resulting in boredom.
Stop the Clock – Worry creates a sense of urgency. Become mindful, and focus on what you observe in the present moment. Practice mediation, deep breathing, music therapy, and/or journal writing.

Ask, “What can I do in this present moment to make my
life more meaningful and pleasant?”

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Lastly, Talk About It – I have to say, I am very thankful of the support I have in my life. I have the most amazing family and friends. BUT, sometimes we need professional support, in the form of psychotherapy, or talk therapy through certified therapists, psychologists and/or psychiatrists. Recognizing the need for professional help is key. If you notice your excessive worrying, or anxiety is starting to affect multiple areas of your life (ie. work, personal, relationships) then it’s highly suggested you reach out for additional support.


Helpful Resources

Anxiety and Depression Association of America

Canadian Mental Health Association

Anxiety.Org


Rachel Page ♥

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No Blog Day

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I have had zero motivation to write a blog today.

I spent the better part of morning tirelessly trying to think of something, anything to write about.

I take comfort in knowing that I am not the only one that struggles with this ordeal.

What gives you guys inspiration?

My blog will be a place where I post material that people can relate to. Material that speaks truth and honesty. A place where we can all learn from each other and gain a deeper understanding, and perhaps new perspectives on life, love, and everything in-between. My vision is to create a space where people feel comfortable and free to discussion their feelings, views and beliefs honestly. A cozy atmosphere where people feel confident and safe to come for guidance and support, a place where we can lean on each other.

I recently turned to Pinterest for some inspiration. It has such great ideas.

Some topics, or personal experiences, that I will (probably) be discussing in the near future will be:

The horrors of online dating
Apps I live by

Nursing Notes
List of things that made me happy this month
Simple Pleasures
Someone I admire
Products I love
How to get through a break up
Unhealthy Relationships
Learning to embrace change
Organization / Productivity
First date Tips
Journey with painting
Stay in date nights
Dating on a budget
Deal Breakers in Relationships
Cancer   
Depression and Anxiety
My Love Language
Story of Compulsive Worrier 

Random thoughts, feelings, and views

Those should keep me occupied for a while.

Rachel Page ♥

A Letter to my Bully(s)

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It has taken me until now to be able to face up to the wrongful ways in which you treated me or acted towards me.

The mental abuse was like knives to my heart that has left deep scars that have only ever partially healed.

No one should have to endure that amount of suffering, for any reason, at any time in their lives.

I can recall countless times that I was humiliated by crude comments, degraded by the spread of false rumours, scrutinized by what I said or didn’t say, and belittled to make me feel less important.

Your cruelty made me bitter, unable to trust anyone, not even myself.

I was left feeling inadequate, empty and alone, and in complete silence.

There were days where I was terrified to go to school, struck with fear of the monsters that would be waiting for me.

I became fearful; I isolated myself from the world and people.

I lost interest of the simple pleasures of life.

I was only a young girl;

I felt helpless, worthless and alone.

I felt persistently sad, and empty. I became tirelessly worried but unable to sleep from the constant worry.

My weight greatly fluctuated between a battle of eating for comfort or feelings sickened with nausea from the overwhelming emotions. I became preoccupied and uncomfortable with my body-image.

I hated myself!

If the constant depressive state wasn’t enough, the anxiety was eating away at my mind and body.

I became highly anxious to be around people. Fear of being judged, rejected, or humiliated.

I would avoid places where my fellow peers would be.

When I did attend school, I would often tremble in fear.

Middle School and High School are supposed to be filled with joyous memories, but unfortunately mine are only of pain and suffering.

I remember the name calling, the shouting, and the hurtful messages written to me on object with permanent marker. I remember the disgraceful flyers (hundreds of them) that were spread around my High School, the disgusting signs and notes left on my locker, and the online mental trauma and empty threats.

I lost total self-esteem, self-confidence; I lost myself and the ability to love myself.

I started to act out, losing respect for my parental rules.

I started on risky journey and experimented with smoking, alcohol and drugs.

I cut myself to feel something, anything.

But with any life experience, good or bad, there are life lessons to be learned.

Because of you,

I gained insight and perspective.

I grew with strength and perseverance.

I vowed to always be kind, respectful, conscientious, empathetic, and soulful.

I learned to love blindly, wholeheartedly, and deeply.

I learned so much about the value of relationships.

I grew.

All because of you.

Thank you.

Today, I love myself.

Most importantly, despite everything, I forgive you.

-Rachel Page ♥

Please comment, provide feedback, like, and share – I truly appreciate it! ♥

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A Letter to my Bully(s)

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It has taken me until now to be able to face up to the wrongful ways in which you treated me or acted towards me.

The mental abuse was like knives to my heart that has left deep scars that have only ever partially healed.

No one should have to endure that amount of suffering, for any reason, at any time in their lives.

I can recall countless times that I was humiliated by crude comments, degraded by the spread of false rumours, scrutinized by what I said or didn’t say, and belittled to make me feel less important.

Your cruelty made me bitter, unable to trust anyone, not even myself.

I was left feeling inadequate, empty and alone, and in complete silence.

There were days where I was terrified to go to school, struck with fear of the monsters that would be waiting for me.

I became fearful; I isolated myself from the world and people.

I lost interest of the simple pleasures of life.

I was only a young girl;

I felt helpless, worthless and alone.

I felt persistently sad, and empty. I became tirelessly worried but unable to sleep from the constant worry.

My weight greatly fluctuated between a battle of eating for comfort or feelings sickened with nausea from the overwhelming emotions. I became preoccupied and uncomfortable with my body-image.

I hated myself!

If the constant depressive state wasn’t enough, the anxiety was eating away at my mind and body.

I became highly anxious to be around people. Fear of being judged, rejected, or humiliated.

I would avoid places where my fellow peers would be.

When I did attend school, I would often tremble in fear.

Middle School and High School are supposed to be filled with joyous memories, but unfortunately mine are only of pain and suffering.

I remember the name calling, the shouting, and the hurtful messages written to me on object with permanent marker. I remember the disgraceful flyers (hundreds of them) that were spread around my High School, the disgusting signs and notes left on my locker, and the online mental trauma and empty threats.

I lost total self-esteem, self-confidence; I lost myself and the ability to love myself.

I started to act out, losing respect for my parental rules.

I started on risky journey and experimented with smoking, alcohol and drugs.

I cut myself to feel something, anything.

But with any life experience, good or bad, there are life lessons to be learned.

Because of you,

I gained insight and perspective.

I grew with strength and perseverance.

I vowed to always be kind, respectful, conscientious, empathetic, and soulful.

I learned to love blindly, wholeheartedly, and deeply.

I learned so much about the value of relationships.

I grew.

All because of you.

Thank you.

Today, I love myself.

Most importantly, despite everything, I forgive you.

-Rachel Page ♥

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Trust – There’s a Reason

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“I trust that everything happens for a reason, even if we are not wise enough to see it.” – Oprah Winfrey

While there may be unpleasant situations that happen in life, they are lessons nonetheless. Lessons that are meant to be learnt from, and provide us with the tools to effectively cope with similar situations in the future. They are meant to provide us with wisdom, intuition, perspective, and guidance. We are able to grow physically, psychologically, and spiritually, and become a better ‘version’ of our previous self.

There have been many occasions that I was blind to the reason behind particular positive or negative situations that occurred in my life. For some, I still have not been able to understand why things happened the way they did, but I have faith that one day the intent will be revealed to me.

“People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.”

Here are some lessons I have learned from the people that have entered my life:

Being cheated on taught me the value of loyalty and honesty.
I have learned self-love and self-worth when I became exhausted trying to live up to someone else’s expectations.
Losing someone taught me to be grateful of life and my loved ones still living.
Change has taught me to just go with the flow.
Fear has taught me to be strong.
Worry has taught me that it is nothing more than fear over the unknown, and something I have little control over.
Relationship endings have taught me to never settle for less than I deserve, and to let go.
Depression has taught me how great happiness feels.
Distance has taught me that no matter where you are in the world, you will always be connected by heart.
Lack of time and availability has taught me to value quality over quantity.
Lost friendships have taught me that not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever (and that it is okay). People change as they grow and sometimes your values, beliefs and rituals may longer align with previous relationships.
I have learned if things are truly meant to be, then they will just be.

Every person and significant event that occurs during your life span truly helps you to become stronger, wiser, kinder, and ultimately happier.

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”  – Marilyn Monroe

-Rachel Page ♥

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Trust – There's a Reason

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“I trust that everything happens for a reason, even if we are not wise enough to see it.” – Oprah Winfrey

While there may be unpleasant situations that happen in life, they are lessons nonetheless. Lessons that are meant to be learnt from, and provide us with the tools to effectively cope with similar situations in the future. They are meant to provide us with wisdom, intuition, perspective, and guidance. We are able to grow physically, psychologically, and spiritually, and become a better ‘version’ of our previous self.

There have been many occasions that I was blind to the reason behind particular positive or negative situations that occurred in my life. For some, I still have not been able to understand why things happened the way they did, but I have faith that one day the intent will be revealed to me.

“People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.”

Here are some lessons I have learned from the people that have entered my life:

Being cheated on taught me the value of loyalty and honesty.
I have learned self-love and self-worth when I became exhausted trying to live up to someone else’s expectations.
Losing someone taught me to be grateful of life and my loved ones still living.
Change has taught me to just go with the flow.
Fear has taught me to be strong.
Worry has taught me that it is nothing more than fear over the unknown, and something I have little control over.
Relationship endings have taught me to never settle for less than I deserve, and to let go.
Depression has taught me how great happiness feels.
Distance has taught me that no matter where you are in the world, you will always be connected by heart.
Lack of time and availability has taught me to value quality over quantity.
Lost friendships have taught me that not everyone is meant to stay in your life forever (and that it is okay). People change as they grow and sometimes your values, beliefs and rituals may longer align with previous relationships.
I have learned if things are truly meant to be, then they will just be.

Every person and significant event that occurs during your life span truly helps you to become stronger, wiser, kinder, and ultimately happier.

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they’re right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”  – Marilyn Monroe

-Rachel Page ♥

Please comment, provide feedback, like and share – it is greatly appreciated. ♥
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The Law – of Attraction. (The Secret)

 

Where do I even begin?

The Secret.
Life transforming!

I was a huge skeptic too, at first. 

How could a single book(s), or theory hold so much truth? So much wisdom? So much perspective? Why wasn’t everyone following the words of this book? Why isn’t everyone leading the life they want? Why isn’t everyone radiating with happiness? 

Too bad for them, right? Not exactly. To believe is a choice. It is a similar choice people make when they decide to believe in God (or not). You believe because you want to believe. You believe because it provides you with hope, faith, love, and happiness. It provides you with guidance, purpose, and value. You will find an abundance of research on the internet that either affirms the Law of Attraction theory or is against it. Ultimately, the choice is yours. But seriously, what do you have to lose?

I wanted to share this book, and its secrets – its words, with everyone. I was so moved by it that I stopped in at the local bookstore on my way to meet a friend one evening.  I ended up being late for our date, for once (only by 15 mins), but it brought me so much joy to provide him with this gift.

What is The Secret?

It is the Law of Attraction.

 ” It is the belief that the universe creates and provides for you that which your thoughts are focused on. “Like Always Attracts like.” The results of positive thoughts are always positive consequences. The same holds true for negative thoughts always leading to bad outcomes.” – The Law of Attraction 


Thoughts Produce Things.

Learn more about the Law of Attraction

The secret really highlights the practice of daily gratitude. Being genuinely thankful, from your heart and soul, is the ultimate way to attract positive consequences. And it really feels great. It means you appreciate more than just yourself. Selflessness.

Every evening, or just before bed, I write a list of the things I am grateful for that day, as well as the things I am grateful for that will come into my life in the future. I wake up the next morning feeling happy and refreshed, conjuring up new ways that I can give back to the life.

The Secret Film is available on Neflix.

Visit Rhonda Byrne’s Page to view (and purchase) the book(s).

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Rachel Page ♥

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